hmmph..

I'm not really sure what I'm doing. Or why. I've been told by a few people that I should start a blog about the medical stuff I've been through the past few years. To which I reply, "Why would someone want to read about that?" I mean, I've lived it and don't find it very blog worthy. People usually blog about their hobbies, careers, babies, super exciting happenings in their life...
not medical stuffs. Then, after physical therapy today, I realized: it could help someone. I mean, not life changing help, but there could be a few people out there where I was 4 or 5 years ago, looking for someone, anyone, to understand. Having doctors look at you like you're a drug addict seeking pain pills (then, when you refuse them, the next 'logical' assumption: Munchhausen Syndrome). So, if this blog sits here, unread, for years....and then one person who has the same symptoms as I did runs across it-then it will be worth it.

Before I really start this, I have to come to terms with the fact that the things I've gone through and what I'm going through now are simply a part of my life. Right now, it pretty much is my life. But I refuse to allow it to have its own life. It cannot become its own 'thing', where it's bigger than I am and I can't see past it. I have to focus on healing and on the normal life waiting for me around the corner. That's a lot harder to do then it sounds.