well, you know

sometimes things just...happen. And sometimes I'm afraid to speak of such things, because I might jinx them...but on the roller coaster of life I have often done the 'wth, why us?' over things....the larger of the said things include:
1. grandmother's Alzheimer's
2. cousins death
3. losing a pet
4. being robbed
5. husband (bf at the time) having 2 feet of intestines removed.
6. sammy eating through a lamp cord and having to go to the hospital the same time husband is in the hospital.
7. husband having to withdrawal from school
8. kidney stones, over, and over, and over x5
9. injury/pain and no diagnosis
10. surgery 1
11. surgery 2
12. medical bills
13. unemployment
14. sammy pooping rivers of blood (coincidentally not related to #6)
15. husband's newly discovered NAFL disease
16. sammy's seizures
17. not being able to afford medical care for sammy

 ok, ok, it sounds like I'm whining and complaining, but actually...there's a light at the end of the tunnel. A light at the end of #17. I'm not a religious person, but I do believe there is something bigger than us going on-you can call it God, Allah, Mother Nature...whatever...but some things are more than coincidences. So for those of you not aware, #16 and #17 started last month...part of the reason for my lack of posts. Keep your fingers and paws crossed for our baby, please. A lot of hard work may be paying off.

Husband will always be missing 2 feet of his intestines, neither of us will ever forget being robbed, I'll always have the physical scars and effects from my surgeries (not nearly as big as the seam going down my husband's stomach!), I'm still unemployed, no one will be bringing my cousin back to life, and my grandmother's Alzheimer's will only get worse. There's absolutely nothing I can do about those things. But damn, I'm working so hard to change the story #16 and #17 are writing...even on 3 hours of sleep. Love this booger.

On an unrelated note:
1. My bff Jessica just got MARRIED!
2. current art project is rocking.
3. when you want something bad enough, nothing can hold you back.
4. I love my high school friends.
5. sometimes it's best to laugh and shut up then to say what you're really thinking. even if it pains you!